This was my hardest week so far. I'm dealing with a lot of emotional stuff this week. I'm sad when I can't finish as much as I want of a meal (despite being satisfied, if not full). It's just like I *miss* eating. I know it's all head stuff but that doesn't make it any easier.
Add to that the scale fucking blows this week and....blah. I have felt nauseous most of the week whenever I eat (no matter what, no matter how fast) and I'm trying to figure out what the deal is. I also know I'm eating too many carbs, once you start it's so hard to stop. Having eggs/turkey/whatever on or with a piece of bread or crackers or whatever just seems so much more normal than eating a plain hunk of meat, you know?
We went out to lunch today (I am determined to get back to being social) and I actually got a burger. It was a huge treat and it was delicious. I did a great job at lunch stopping way before I was over-full. I brought the other half home. In what was probably a stupid move I had the rest of dinner. I ate way to fast since it was just my daughter and I eating together and. Yay. I don't think I've felt as sick as I did earlier tonight at all since this whole thing started. I didn't puke though - phew!
Today was a big calorie day, other days this week were light. I've heard that it's good to 'trick' the body like that sometimes (vs eating the same # of calories day in and day out). We'll see. I hold out no hope for movement tomorrow morning.
This week I guess I'll focus on refined carbs 1x/day OR LESS. And, liquid. As always, liquid, liquid, liquid. I pretty much have my protein needs licked as long as I have the two supplements each day which, now that I think about it, I haven't been perfect about so let's add protein in there too. Oh - and working out. Fuck. Everything. I have to work on everything, OK?
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Just out of curiousity why the focus on protein? Is it really that people gain with carbs? Or just a matter of how dense protein calories are? I feel like I can't lose when I don't have carbs.
ReplyDeleteA lot of people, myself included, are very carb sensitive. I think my crap-tastic week was from adding in too many carbs (and not even refined flour, mind you). But, the reason for the focus is for healing mostly. Also to prevent hair loss and also b/c most people lose the most (in general) from a protein heavy diet with carbs coming from veg/fruit and not white flour.
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